I Don't Want to be your Friend

I've been looking for nice songs to listen to while I'm doing my paper and I came across Nina's version of "I don't wanna be your friend" (originally by cindy lauper).

I realized that I've been doing what I'm fond of doing: listening to and analyzing songs. I found out that my primary motivation in playing that song was probably the repressed feelings of hate and anger towards my past boyfriend. haha.

Although that would not be quite true because I'm not really angry with him. I just don't want the part where we have to remain friends. Being the slightly masochistic and ever-sacrificial girl that I am, I agreed with that. He broke up with me and asked me that we remain friends. So much for getting over.

But really I'm good as fully recovered. I'm fine as long as I don't know what's going on with his life. I'm fine as long as I don't know that there's another girl. I'm still fine even if he introduced me with her. It's just... awkward. I guess that goes with the "being friends" package.

I could keep on ranting about not wanting to be his friend but until I don't bring myself to tell that to him, I'd end up the friend that I was and will always be.

Here's the lyrics by the way from http://www.lyricsdownload.com/nina-i-don-t-wanna-be-your-friend-lyrics.html : (the italicized parts are the ones going on inside my head.)

I Don't Want To Be Your Friend
nina

I don't wanna see your face
I don't wanna hear your name
I don't wanna thing
Just stay away baby
Don't wanna know if you're alright
Or what you're doin' with your life
Don't wanna hear you say you'll just stay in touch baby
I'll get by just fine
And if you're goin' then darlin'
Goodbye, goodbye

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
Don't think that I care
I'm not over you yet
And I don't wanna be your friend

I'll forget we ever met
I'll forget I ever let
Ever let you into this heart of mine baby
You just gotta let me be
You gotta keep away from me
'Cause all I want is just to be free from you baby
Don't you come around
And say you still care about me
Just go now, go now

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
Don't think that I care
I'm not over you yet
And I don't wanna be your friend

You take it casually, baby it's killing me
Goodbye, goodbye

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
No baby
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
I'm not over you yet
And I don't want to be your friend
I don't want to be your friend

Don't call me
Don't come around
And I don't wanna be your friend

seriously.