Broken-Hearted

When you get so brokenhearted because the break-up is still so fresh in your head that you could even role-play it if you want to and it keeps rewinding in your mind, do you get so melancholic that you listen to "emo" songs that sound so cheesy? (but you can't do anything because they capture the moment!)
I was searching for those songs in Youtube and found out that I 'm not the only emo person who got her heart broken. (Of course not.)

There were the endless comments dedicating those songs to their (ex) love ones, or those "nagpapatama" comments. There would be those "I can almost imagine this guy/girl slashing his/her wrists" comments. haha. I know it's bad to laugh at someone else' misery but what I find funny is that these people who get so devastated by love would eventually move on. (and maybe get their hearts broken again.)

This irony has inspired me to write this post about songs for brokenhearted people or for people saying goodbye to love because eventually they'd move on to the next parts of this trilogy- which are Letting go and Moving on.

Eventually, the tears will fade away and the sun will come out tomorrow. So cheer up and enjoy the list for now.

Where do broken Hearts go

How do you heal a broken heart

Time can't heal a broken heart in me

I Can't Find the Words to say Goodbye

Someone's always saying goodbye

I Don't Want to be your Friend

I've been looking for nice songs to listen to while I'm doing my paper and I came across Nina's version of "I don't wanna be your friend" (originally by cindy lauper).

I realized that I've been doing what I'm fond of doing: listening to and analyzing songs. I found out that my primary motivation in playing that song was probably the repressed feelings of hate and anger towards my past boyfriend. haha.

Although that would not be quite true because I'm not really angry with him. I just don't want the part where we have to remain friends. Being the slightly masochistic and ever-sacrificial girl that I am, I agreed with that. He broke up with me and asked me that we remain friends. So much for getting over.

But really I'm good as fully recovered. I'm fine as long as I don't know what's going on with his life. I'm fine as long as I don't know that there's another girl. I'm still fine even if he introduced me with her. It's just... awkward. I guess that goes with the "being friends" package.

I could keep on ranting about not wanting to be his friend but until I don't bring myself to tell that to him, I'd end up the friend that I was and will always be.

Here's the lyrics by the way from http://www.lyricsdownload.com/nina-i-don-t-wanna-be-your-friend-lyrics.html : (the italicized parts are the ones going on inside my head.)

I Don't Want To Be Your Friend
nina

I don't wanna see your face
I don't wanna hear your name
I don't wanna thing
Just stay away baby
Don't wanna know if you're alright
Or what you're doin' with your life
Don't wanna hear you say you'll just stay in touch baby
I'll get by just fine
And if you're goin' then darlin'
Goodbye, goodbye

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
Don't think that I care
I'm not over you yet
And I don't wanna be your friend

I'll forget we ever met
I'll forget I ever let
Ever let you into this heart of mine baby
You just gotta let me be
You gotta keep away from me
'Cause all I want is just to be free from you baby
Don't you come around
And say you still care about me
Just go now, go now

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
Don't think that I care
I'm not over you yet
And I don't wanna be your friend

You take it casually, baby it's killing me
Goodbye, goodbye

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
No baby
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
I'm not over you yet
And I don't want to be your friend
I don't want to be your friend

Don't call me
Don't come around
And I don't wanna be your friend

seriously.

Alter Egoistic Part 1

I just found out some trivial stuff about myself.

I hate spam emails so much that every time i see a new one in my inbox, I can't help but scream "Putik!" (that's a derivative for a colloquial bad word.) inside my head. Don't get me wrong. It's just that who's stupid enough to give personal information including his/her bank accounts to total strangers?

I also found out that I easily get annoyed by those couples who can't keep their physical affections for each other in private. There's nothing wrong with holding hands or even a kiss on the cheek. There's nothing wrong with being indifferent from the world around you. It's just that I want to puke when they're making out and you're there, left with no choice but to sit beside them in a crowded jeepney. It's a jeepney! It's meant for "public transportation", not "public display of affection".

Who cares about these things anyway? They are just products of a mind that will eventually disappear given enough time.
So much for being "emo". After all, it's the reason why I write- to make these ideas tangible enough to be read and be thought upon.